Even bad times have good things in them to make you feel alive.” – Nick Hornby

 

We have been so excited to share our exciting news with family and friends. Its probably been the hardest secret we have ever had to keep. I love the quote above because we have felt alive and happy since we found out I was pregnant. We have been stuck in this trial of cancer for so long now, it was so great to have some good news in our lives. We have always associated doctor visits with cancer, so it was a nice change to be excited for once to go to a doctors appointment.

We started this journey over a year ago. I was able to get pregnant going through in vitro fertilization. It has been one of the hardest things I have ever gone through, but I’m so grateful I did. We transferred one embryo in August and were pretty shocked when we heard two heartbeats on our 6 week ultrasound. When the woman doing my ultrasound asked me how many embryos I put in, I freaked out thinking to myself “why is she asking me this?”  Sure enough we had two little babies on the monitor. My fertility doctor told me there was a 2.7% chance that embryo would split.  I’ve learned that no matter how hard you try to plan out your life, God will always have a different plan for you.  I’ve put a lot of trust in him and his plan for me. I believe with my whole heart these two little boys were meant to both come together at this time. I think knowing how rare it is for that embryo to split just confirms to me that this was meant to happen.  God is aware and watching out for us. I’m so grateful for that. We know that having twins will be hard, but we are excited!

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Starting a family was not an easy decision for us to make. We know its going to be hard, but we felt that we deserved some happiness in our lives. If we lived our lives waiting for cancer to be gone we would miss out on all the good things along the way.